Mental Health Journey

  • Bit of a Back Slide This was the first full week that I didn’t have two treatments of Spravato, and it was a bit of a doozy, but not for the reasons of therapy or medication. I just had a rough time this past week nursing my ESA back to a point where she wanted

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  • It would be about another year before I was able to get back on medication for my depression, but now my new doctor made me choose between medication for my pain and medication for my anxiety. I wasn’t allowed both. Then I was finally able to find a mental health professional that would oversee my…

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  • Over the next four weeks, starting with this one, my treatment will be just once a week. The odd thing is I’m going to miss going out that second day, the clinic where I get my treatments is just so calming and it’s a nice couple of hours where I feel like I can relax…

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  • Knowing what it was like to not experience those unwanted feelings had made me rather enjoy being at least somewhat normal, and if I couldn’t get a doctor to help me with medication, then I decided to avoid them altogether. Afterall no triggers, meant no anxiety, right? At least that was my flawed logic at…

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  • Next week will be the last week that I have two treatments a week, following that I step down to once a week and from there I suppose we shall see. I’m extremely happy though this treatment has completely changed my life. I don’t wake up feeling like I have to drag myself through another…

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  • Even slightly easing the isolation and loneliness that I was feeling help me want to get better. It gave me hope that life could in fact be better, rather than worse or non-existent.

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  • Everyone around me is noticing the huge difference the Spravato treatment has made in my life. My doctors, therapists, pretty much everyone that knew or met me before I started. I am starting to feel amazing, and looking forward to a future, and yet I am still angry. It’s not a hot violent anger like…

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  • It is important to note that not everyone who has depression or has been suicidal is like me. There are some parents who just can’t fight their darkness, or demons as people say and end their own lives. This isn’t to say that they were bad parents, or even bad people. Their lives just got…

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  • For years I thought that my life was going to be one plagued with depression and medication that only made life bearable at best. After trying antidepressant after antidepressant, I’ve finally found something that really seems to be working for me, and after only two doses. I look forward to taking my life back from…

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